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Classic Interview
with
Emilie Autumn
Can you tell us briefly about your childhood,what is your fondest childhood memory and when did you decide that a career in music is what you wanted to pursue?
EA: I was the only child out of five who was intended to exist. My mother was the only hard-core feminist on Earth who was also violently against abortion, regardless of the reason, so I would have been born whether I was intended or not, which is only to say that I was not special. The first intention I can call my own was the intention that I would master the violin, and that, if i could manage it, it would take me out of my present space into another that would be, I thought, much better. I wanted a career because I needed a career in order to transcend my existence. My fondest memory was the realization that I was given something from birth, something I would work on, but didn't have to work for. I was given a talent for music, and nothing else. Except for great cheekbones. And that is more than many will ever be given, and, thus, I am more grateful than I can ever express.
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>> What do you see as the defining moment in your life and how has that molded you into the person we see today?
EA: The defining moment in my life...well, firstly, that is an absolutely artificial question, in that, anything I say will be because I like the way it sounds, nothing more. No one could ever state the defining moment of their life. A truly defining moment would likely be something one is not even remotely aware of. That said, my defining moment (which means merely that I like the way this sounds) is the moment I decided, "To be." In Hamlet, Hamlet ponders "the question," yet is too much a coward to answer it. I answered it, and I chose "to be." The defining moment of my life was the moment I decided to live. After that, all is easy.
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>> How did you get your first break into music and what things did you do before that to get noticed?
EA: I couldn't rightly say that I've ever been given a break, which is, in fact, a very good thing. If I'd been given a break, I might feel that I don't deserve, or perhaps haven't entirely earned, any success I've achieved. The beauty of never having been given a break is that I own everything I have. What did I do to get noticed? I didn't. I wasn't. Whom is a musician supposed to get noticed by? A record label exec? An audience? Don't try to get noticed. Don't beg. Don't pander. My advice to musicians is to just shut up and do what you do. Don't whine about people not paying attention to you. If they don't pay attention, it's because you're not interesting -- no more, no less. You don't have to be pretty. Most musicians aren't pretty (that whole "you have to be pretty to be famous" thing is bullshit -- look around, how many celebrities in the music industry are truly beautiful/in great shape/etc.). People found me because I wrote about myself and I made music I knew how to make. I told my truth. And the humbling truth of us all is that we are not that very different from anyone else. And that means that my truth will resonate. So will yours, if you choose to share it.
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>> How would you answer the question who is Emilie Autumn?
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EA: Emilie Autumn is someone who doesn't like to talk about who she is, but would rather let people decide for themselves, based upon what they think of her contributions to the world. Emilie Autumn has a lot of love to give, and she tries very hard. That is all.
>> You always seem to put a lot of effort into your live performances…...What do you think makes a good live performance,what has been the best performance you have done to date and if you could play any venue and do anything for a live show what would you do and why?
Goodness, that's a lot! I put a lot into my performances because people put a lot into coming to see me, and I appreciate this. I take nothing for granted. I believe that all who come deserve the absolute best, and I will always try to give them that. A good performance is one where the performer appreciates those who came to see them for exactly who and what they are. The respect of a performer towards their audience makes for a great performance.
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>> Ok,Tell me one story from a time you were tour or at one of your shows?
EA: Let me make a spiked green tea first...ok, I'm back! Well, In Brazil, a manager at a venue stormed his way backstage whilst the girls and I were changing costumes (read: naked), and attempted to make up for the unacceptable occurrence by offering us ice cream, as though we were children. But I suppose that very little could beat our experience in Russia where for us to simply hold hands with each other on stage would be legally charged as "gay propaganda." Replacing out most precious moments with a "high-five" was the most significant experience of my touring life because it showed me that, somehow or other, I'd developed something that was necessary to censor, and that made me both extremely sad, and extremely proud.
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>> You have written songs in the past to do with your Bipolar Disorder………..How hard is it writing songs about that particular subject,do you think songs about your experiences in life make the best songs and what would you say to anyone having trouble coping with the disorder?
EA: I would first like to state that all songs to do with anyone's personal experiences in life make for the best songs. Always. And yet, I don't write particularly about bi-polar disorder...I write about myself and what I know and the characters and fantasy worlds that come from myself and what I know, and, being bi-polar, these may be unique, as everyone's writing should be. It isn't hard to write about these subjects because, really, what else am I supposed to write about? Puppies and daisies? I don't think so. And do you want that from me? Or from anybody? I don't think so. I don't write from a weak place. I don't write about how hard it is to be different. I write about how fucking brilliant it is to be different. I write about how much strength one attains from being different. I write about pride. I write about mad-pride. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, or anyone else. I'm fucking celebrating.
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>> What things do you like and dislike about being in the public eye?
I know this will sound horribly insincere...but there isn't anything positive about it. The "public eye" isn't an envied place to be, and the closer I've come to it, the more horrified I've been. Because, for starters, who is "the public?" Is "the public" my audience? Hell no. My audience is special. They are not the general public. If they were the general public I would be a lot wealthier. The "public eye" means getting stalked, harassed, viscously judged, and put in danger. If I do things in the future that gain notoriety, I will do them in spite of fame, not because of it. I am out for world domination, but not fame. They are very different things. I could dominate the world without anyone ever realizing it.
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>> For anyone reading this that hasn't come across you before how would you describe yourself to them and what track of your would you suggest they listen to?
EA: I would simply describe myself as an overly dramatic singer who writes rock operas and likes to dress up. I don't even think that's being self-effacing -- I think it's absolutely true. I'd recommend listening to both my "Opheliac" CD and my EP, "4 o'Clock." Naturally, having heard these, you won't be able to resist hearing my latest album, "Fight Like A Girl," and so I don't have to tell you to do so. Armed with all of this knowledge, you will be prepared to come to a show and watch me get as close to a theatrical musical as I can before actually hitting Broadway. Save that for a week later.
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>> What do you see as your biggest achievement to date,is there anything you regret or would change about your career and if you could have done anything or written any song that ever existed what would it be and why?
EA: That actually a beautiful collection of questions -- thank you for that. I feel that my greatest achievement at this still early date must be only that I am
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>> You have dreams of doing a stage show/musical…...Can you tell us if that is in the pipline for the future,what would it be about and what would you like it to be like?
It is indeed in the pipeline. In fact it is the extension of my stage show that you may already be familiar with. It is the complete story as told in my book, "The Asylum For Wayward Victorian Girls." It is massive, dangerous, and beautiful, and will take over Broadway whether it likes it or not. The inmates are running the Asylum, and they will soon be running Broadway.
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>> Can you tell me three things about yourself that people might not already know?
EA: I make perfect tortillas from scratch, my mother is the fucking spitting image of Sigourney Weaver (thanks for the badass bone structure), and, before he died, my father looked exactly like Matthew McConaughey in "Dallas Buyer's Club".
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>> What or who are your musical influences and why?
EA: My musical influences are, automatically, given the time frame, classical composers and musicians that are not in existence anymore. But what gets really upsetting is that, once I began getting into more modern bands and musicians, they were either broken up or, more usually, dead as well, which simply means that I never seem to be able to hang out for a jam session with any of my favorites.